Highs and Lows and Every Other Which Way

Lots has happened since Comic Con. I've been tired and honestly, lazy, to blog. Let's attempt to recap, we'll go in chronological order to make it smoother.
I bought a diaper bag. For a penny. That's right One Cent. It was on Amazon and was obviously a mistake but I bought it figuring hey the worst that could happen is they cancel the order and give me my penny back. But they didnt. I didn't even pay shipping because I'm an Amazon Prime member. It's not totally my style or first choice but dude for a penny? I'll take it and love it! I checked again recently and it's normally $60 on sale for $40 now. Total Score!


Next is that the baby is well. Here's a pic from the last ultrasound I had. Her hands are up and you can see her lips and nose and her eyes are shaded. She looks like she has big ol lips in this picture. She was practicing breathing so we could see her moving her mouth and her chest going up and down.

Sunday I was feeling crampy and had a backache all day so I called Monday morning and asked if I could come in. They squeezed me in and hooked me up to the NST to make sure all was well. She was fine and the doc checked me out. I was dilated 1-2cm and my cervix was really thinned out. She also said the babies head was really low, which explains the pain I feel with every step I take, she's basically bouncing on my pelvis. I'm having an ultrasound tomorrow to see how big she is. My due date is in less than two weeks but I don't think I'm going to make it another two weeks. Everything is achey and tired. And lots of other signs that are gross or tmi, like losing of mucus plug, sorer boobs and farts. Im just tired. Here's a pic a co worker took of me today. I'm ginormous.

 Lastly, I lost my grandma last night. It was very sudden and unexpected and has hit me very hard. I'm feeling a lot of emotions and not handing them very well. During the day I try to put it out of my mind to get through work and life without being a mess but the minute I'm alone I dissolve. I'm lucky enough to have 3 awesome grandparents left, but I think that because I've never lost anyone this close, it's especially hard. Through my fucked up teen/early twenties years I disapointed my grandparents big time and created a large rift between us. I didn't even really talk to them until I saw them at my Aunt's wedding a few years back. It was hard because I usually am of the mind that I am who I am today because of the things I went through and theyve made me stronger. But when I saw my grandparents I was so ashamed of not being smart/good/non-trouble/insert whatever adjective that I was a mess. We talked and it was ok but its still ackward and hard for me to talk to them. After all this time I still feel like I need to prove to them that I'm ok, that I turned out ok. I just thought I'd have more time to show her. My Papa had a stroke last year a month before my wedding that prevented them from coming so I haven't seen them in years and years. I think 6-7. I'll never get to show my daughter to her or let her hold her. She'll never hear her laugh or cry. I'll never get to take those photos with my daughter mom and grandma and be like 4 generations! or whatever.
I'm so at a total loss. I'm having a hard time wrapping my brain around that I won't ever see her again while at the same time getting ready to say hello to a new person for the first time. Life is full of hello's and goodbye's. We never know when one will happen.
Tell your family you love them. You really never know when something can happen. Nothing is more important than your loved ones. Nothing is worth putting them off. Write them a letter, send them a picture. Call just to say hi. Tell them you love them. All of them. Even the ones you're not always sure you love, because deep down you do (everyones got those ones!)
I love you all. If you're reading this, you're a loved one. I will make an effort to be closer to those I love and not waste time on those I don't.

COMIC CON!!!

I've wanted to go to Comic Con for as long as I can remember. I have memories of going to these small cons at like the Santa Maria Inn and being totally in to it, getting signatures and just loving it all. For some reason or another, I've never been to Comic Con. Well this weekend that changed.
IT WAS FREAKING AWESOME.
I can't even begin to describe. I drove down Thursday morning, picked up my badges and cruised the exhibitors hall. If you've ever been to the SD Convention center, this took up the ENTIRE bottom floor. Like wall to wall exhibits, booths, comics, games, oddball stuff, everything you can imagine. I saw like size Lego replicas of Gandalf, took a picture with a Michonne dummy from Walking Dead (ps, thanks dude for getting in my pic), saw some AMAZING artwork and really awesome old comics in amazing condition. People were dressed in crazy costumes. Like men dressed as Princess Leia. I'm bummed I didn't get a pic of that haha. Half the time I was just too in awe of everything and i kept forgetting to get out my camera!
Friday I was hoping to see Firefly. And I think Comic Con made a big mistake by not putting it in Hall H. The hall it was in was WAY too small for all the people that wanted to see it. I ALMOST got in but not quite. While waiting for Firefly I realized that I qualified as disabled so I got my disabled sticker for my badge and got in that line. That's the only reason that I ALMOST made it. Sadly I could hear the crowds screaming but didn't get to see the cast or anything. I heard it was an awesome panel though. So I stayed in that line and caught the Bones panel. It was a good panel. David Boreanaz is REALLY handsome in real life and he and Emily obviously play really well off each other. They joked and laughed a lot.  Pretty awesome. And I got some good knitting done while waiting in line. Yes, baby, your blanket was half knit while at Comic Con. You're welcome.

After that I hightailed it over to where Falling Skies was going to be even though I was a panel and a half early, I just didn't want to miss it. So I sat through half the Gears of War panel, which apparently is a video game, but sounded very interesting. They put a lot of work into those back stories on video games! Then was a really awesome Marvel panel that talked a lot about what they're working on now, the Avengers vs X-Men arc they've got going now, and offered advice to artists and writers that wanted to break into the biz. By then I had moved my way up to like the 7th row of the hall so I was in good shape when Falling Skies came out! It was moderated by Wil Wheaton which was hysterical. Moon Bloodgood is strikingly beautiful. Noah Wyle looks just like you think he would. He seems like a sort of serious, introverted guy. Like he kind of felt ackward being up there talking about himself. Which was sort of cute. Will Patton I think is a bit of a weird bird. He answered questions but usually with like one word or sentence. Everyone else seemed to really enjoy it and to be having fun. Got to see some sneak peaks of what's coming!!! also got a juicy tidbit of info........................ TERRY O'QUINN is joining Falling Skies!!!!!! Locke from Lost!!! Love that guy, so Super excited to see what kind of character he'll be!!

Saturday I didn't have a ticket to Comic Con so I missed out on a lot of big stuff. But I'm going to pretend that day didn't happen so I don't feel sad about it. I just hung out at Jennifer and Froy's house. Had lunch with her, did some homework, watched some TV and went to bed early. Had to be up and at 'em for Sunday!
SUNDAY! I took the earliest trolley (I parked at Qualcomm and took the trolley to the convention center) and got there around 7am. Luckily, I had my handy dandy disabled sticker still so I got in that line instead of the MASSIVE Hall H line. This guy was waiting for us:
Got in easily and got a pretty darn good seat. The mornings panels were Fringe, Supernatural and Doctor Who. I'm not caught up on Fringe, but they were a fun group to watch. This coming season is their finale so it was cool to hear what the're all working on and doing.

 I don't watch Supernatural at all so I totally didn't get anything that was going on. I only recognized one guy because he's English and was on Doctor Who for a couple episodes.
Then, the moment I'd been waiting for! Chris Hardwick ran out and he was the moderator for Doctor Who! Could it get any better?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??! They showed some clips and then brought out Steven Moffatt, the Ponds, the Doctor and another producer/writer lady (she talked like once the whole time). It was really cool. Listening to Moffat talk about how he writes and has all this stuff in his head and how he doesn't tell the cast things until they're about to happen (or not at all). The interaction between the cast was great, they are all obviously close and told great stories, like how Matt has a stalker lady that thinks he looks like a hedgehog. Yes, a hedgehog.



This was a guy in a wheelchair that turned it into a Dalek!

And Chris Hardwick dressed up as 10 for some party last night and Matt Smith busted him:
 
After the Who panel got out did another exhibit floor round and then went to the turn in a ticket I got at Falling Skies and got two cool little pins and then I called it a day.

 It sounds like I didn't do much, but the massive amounts of walking and standing in line take up a good chunk. My feet are pretty sore and my body isn't too happy about all the standing and sitting. But I don't care. It was WORTH IT. You can't really see the madness in this pic but here's a shot:

I'm exhausted and going to bed. Here's a couple more pics

Baby Countdown is THREE WEEKS! Stormageddon Brewing!

Five Short weeks and so much to do

We are officially at the 5 weeks until her due date time. I realize she can come anytime before or even after that, but it's easier for me to grasp if I keep a general date in mind. Five short weeks. Next month! It's July. Holy Frijoles.
Doctors appointments have been going well. I've done two NST's and they were both good, so she's moving and doing whatever it is that they want her to be doing. The ultrasound I had at Dr. Steigers put her at about 5 lb 9 oz. They say they can gain around 1/2 lb a week so there's a good chance she'll be around a 9 pound baby. Weirdly enough, I'm not that worried about that right now. I guess I have so much else on my brain that the actual pushing out of a ginormous baby isn't even registering. haha Pregnancy brain strikes again! Here's some pics of me at the Dr and the richter scale thing they guage the NST's on.

 In other news, I had a nice weekend. I met with some of my knitting friends on Saturday morning. Made a new knitting friend and just laughed and talked a lot. I love knitting, I just wish I had more time to do it. I love yarn and feeling it and working with it but I just have a hard time finding the time. I'm not good enough to knit without looking and things like that so I have a hard time multi tasking. I thought I was doing super good on Saturday but then later on I realized I had misread the pattern. So I ripped it all out and started over. I'm about to where I was when I had to frog so at least I'm not too far behind. I also finally made a new knitting needle holder. With my super special Tardis fabric. Yes I finally actually cut it. I had a yard and I've been terrified to cut into it and ruin it. Luckily I'm SUPER stoked on how it turned out.

 I also might have something of a needle problem. I'll admit it. But interestingly enough I feel like I'm actually missing some of my straight needles. I have a lot of circulars. They're the crappy ones I bought on Amazon. Which are actually and Amazing deal, but my dogs really seem to enjoy chewing and I've had a couple of them break pretty easily. I'd like to get one of those sets that has the interchangeable needles.

 And then I spent the rest of Sunday cleaning the office. I'm definitely not done yet but I've been slowly working on it and I actually made some good progress. I was able to make room and move the yarn buckets into the weird closet area in the office. I may have to enforce a no yarn buying ban on myself.  To be fair I did just receive an awesome huge bag of yarn recently so that is part of it.

Lastly, check out this AWESOME beautiful decal in the baby's room. It took us like an hour to get it all set up but it's freaking amazing. I'm not very good at decorating so it's awesome that a whole wall is like totally beautifully decorated. Thanks mom! There's a purple bookshelf I have my eye on that will look so cute underneath the tree.

Oh on more thing. COMIC CON is NEXT WEEK! I'm SO freaking excited. and The Comic Con gods were smiling down on me. I didn't get a Saturday pass and I was just sure that one of the things I REALLY wanted to see would be on that day but it's NOT! My numero uno importante was Doctor Who and it's SUNDAY! This super pregnant gal will be there with bells on!